I said i will control my temper, but i didnt.

I get scolded for nothing. If you are right, i dont mind. But you arent helping us out. All you know is to vent your anger on us.
You thought that you are best, but the fact that you are nothing.
You thought that you are the fastest in doing thing, but the fact is your cutting suck.
You are just testing my temper, you make me reach my limit.
I never want to waste my school fee just like that. If only i not in attachment. I left two month and i'm completed my course. Why are you making my path difficult.
I really dunno why.

Broccoli Cappuccino with Floating Island and Caviar


Roasted Quail Breast with Polenta and Truffle Sauce


Pan Seared Cod with Sauteed Vegetables and Champagne Cream

Just want to try out something and also plating. Took the left over ingredients to play around.

Td My chef not around so get to cook anything i want. Without him in kitchen or working, my life is always good, my ear get to rest and my mind is not irritated.
Just left two more month and i'm done with my attachment. Is not that i do not like my working place, everyone doesnt like to work with him around. Everyone is leaving because of him and worst he didnt even realise it or maybe....

Mother's day is coming.. i always have a few words i wanted to say but my courage isnt there.

My mom is always a pillar for me to lean when i'm tired.
My mom is always a role model for me to learn.
My mom never stop me from what i love doing.

She is also my dad. She has been strong enough to accept her life and bring us up. She never complain tired. Although i know she tired but she choose to keep to herself.

I remember when i want to pursue my study in SHATEC, she told me something, "Sorry, i cant afford to pay the large amount of fee for you". My mind totally went blank. I understand that she always leave the best for us but for her, she could just want to see us happy.

My path wasnt that smooth too, I afraid i have to stop working towards my passion. Lucky i found a part time job that i work 7 days a week for almost 6 months for my fee. But i neglect my mom, when i went to work she already out for work, when i home she already slept. I hardly talk to her.

I never regret that she my mom. She never show her dissappointment when i first get inked but i know she is truly sad. She just want me to be happy with my life and never regret what i have done.

Is not that i not a good son, but that my life. i choose what i want to be.
My thought, My say

Thank you mom =)


If only i still working there.....

Lollipop

Friends....

Friends are the one that make you smile after a rainbow
Friends are the one that wipe your tears after a storm
Friends are the one that lend you an umbrella when there rain
Friends are the one that hold your hands and walk together when in the darkness

Although it easy to make new friends, but true friends are hard to find
I'm comtempted to have them.

They went through think and thin with you
They cheer you up when you are down
They guide you when you took the wrong path

I never regret knowing them.

I miss the past and i hate the present. If only we can gather every week for a simple meal, that will be great. If time could turn back then.

I never forget the past, when we get to know each others. Everythings are keep inside me.

I will always remember the past and keep it safe.

Past are meant to keep and remember, present are meant to be past so that i can keep it as past. I miss you my friends.

And i never forget my sisters. =)

My sisters ah!!!

SERIOUS??

I'm always stuck with dis word.

they always think that I'm not serious in whatever i do.
she always think that I'm not serious in my words.
they always believe i never get serious.

it not that I'm not serious, I'm not use to express my feeling out. i rather they think that I'm happy or not serious.

But when I'm serious, no one believe me.

I'm always serious about my further
I'm always serious about my work.
I'm always serious in her.
I'm always serious when things need to be serious.
but no one believe.

i'm sorry to let you think that i'm not serious.
A mistake is done that cant be forgotten.

One day liiang will change himself. one day....

Appetiser


Main Course


Dessert

Taken on 20/4.

Nth much happen td =)

if only my life is not just black and white.

i never accept the fact of losing to others
i never accept the fact that i change alot till td
i never accept the fact i inked myself although i have not regret
i never accept the fact my life have lots of obstacles

if clock could run anti-clockwise, my time could turn back.

i will be that Innocent
i will never walk the wrong path again
i will listen to others comments
i will change my everything

i never like to share my feeling with friends. i rather pretend then share out my feeling. i prefer to keep the past. let the past be the past.

i just like that.


Had nothing to do during work after finish all my stuff.



Cooking can give me a sense of pride
Cooking let me realise what is life in the world
Cooking give me a sense of direction to what i want to be oneday
Cooking can give me a great satisfaction when others enjoy your food

Good nite.

i have lost the smile on my face.

i couldnt stop thinking everything about my life. i always wan to take the express route to reach my goal. i have lost my balance.

i wanted to cook for her
i wanted to cook for my mother
i wanted to cook for my friends
i wanted to cook for the people i love

maybe one day i will....

i dont understand why i cant saved a single cents every month regardless on how much i earn. i just wan to change my lifestlye.

Stop drinking
stop everything that waste money

Sometime, i just felt that working in kitchen may not be what i want. i do not wish to be just earning 1000$ plus every month.

Politic in kitchen is very scary. it make me wanting to give up and just dun care. But i cant. i choose what i wan to do and never regret. i never wan to lose to others.

Never be a victim of the politic issues or parts of the team.

Working in BW has always been the same. Too much work, insufficient of rest + get fucked for nothing. i dun mind getting fucked, but at least have a reason to fuck me.

td had been busy for FHA event and tml i have to work till 2am. no mood to work liao.

Just come back slacking with iz, my and kw. well just sit down talk crap already fill my day. =)

Someone asked me a question while on the way back which let me think, "You dun wan find one meh".

It not that i do not wan to find. Relationship had nvr been my priority, i want to build my career first. I do not which my hard work to be wasted. i wan to be someone one day.

Maybe one day i will change my mind but cooking has always been my passion. That will be my rice bowl for the rest of my life.


Lemon Sole in Meuniere Style with Almond Flakes and Caper

Done by Liiang on 14/04/10. =)

Work work work.

I'm tired, mentally tired, emotional tired.
i'm in a driving-you-mentally and emotional-tired working environment.


My chef in BW isnt a chef
My chef in BW isnt a repectable chef
My chef in BW isnt a person that people will like/love
My chef in BW isnt a organise people

All this make me so tired working. my eyes getting smaller and smaller. =.=
Sometime i get fcuk for no reason.

My heart is gone in working. i no longer have the heart to carry on. i was thinking about going home to sleep.

Function is getting more. less people is working. Endure 2 more months and i'm done with my attachment. =(

明明不开心，为什么要假装开心？

I finish venting my anger, a picture of dish done by me to end the day!


Red Snapper with Sweet Curry Sauce
(Recipe fo SALE!)

MyLife, My Style

i nvr regret what i have done to myself.

People always have bad impression on me
People always look down on me
But it alright for me.

i nvr believe or trust anyone but only myself.

i love what i have done and will complete what i have not done.

Once done never turn back!

She Give Me Smile

She took it back when i was happily smiling.
She give back to me when i was crying.

Today she put a smile on my face by a simple massage.
i really miss you, nvr forget you.

it been 2 month since i last received her massage. i have no ways to contact her in any form. glad to heard from her that she fine and working well there.

Talking to her was the sweetest thing in the world
Imaging her was the greatest thing that i can do
Forgeting her was the hardest thing that i will do

Hope is the only word i can ask for.

knowing her the first time was clear on my mind

khit thueng mak mak =)

"LolliPop"

i always remember the times we had in SHATEC.

we will always wait for each others to go to sch tgt
we will always have lunch or maybe dinner tgt
we will always walk to mrt tgt
we will always share laughter tgt

Now

we nvr ever go to sch tgt
we nvr ever have outing tgt
we nvr ever call each others again
we nvr keep in touch often

we all are busy with our attachment. maybe till the day when we are all free and share our past tgt asgain like last time. waiting for you guys.. =(

My Chef.

no one belive in me regardless of what i do.
no one understand me regardless of what i do.
no one care about me regardless of what i do.

but he is the one that belive, care and understand me.

He tought me the principle of kitchen life
He tought me how to cook
He tought me about life

he always my best chef that i look upon to.

he never discourage me
he never look down on me
he never been as a supervisor to me but a father figure to me

thank you my chef!

thought

it look crisy on the outside, but inside is soft.
i may look happy on the physical, but ....

i have so many thought.
if only i choose my career well.
if only i'm carefull enough to make new friends
if only my mind able me to stop thinking about my negative
if only i have heart to carry on working in BWOLF

i have so many if only.... if only i done my best in career. maybe sometime i just wish to reach destination without taking stairs but lift. stairs will nvr breakdown, but lift will.

Sometime i do not wan to drink with them, but in working environment, it all about acting. being the small one in term of ranking, anything i have to do. i'm so tired on acting.


Smile

a meal without dessert isnt completed. dessert will always leave a smile at the end of the meal. making dessert is always about patience. one day, i can be the one making dessert with my patience.